Radicalized Generation..

NS Life

Well, it’s been more than 6 weeks since i enlisted into the NS.. Life been quite tough in here, as it’s really very physically demanding as well as mentally draining. But along the way, I had learnt many lessons on life, and how this saying suddenly meant alot to me now “tough times don’t last, but tough men do”.. Although the trainings are tough, and there’s many freak mind games played by the commanders, but i feel that it’s toughening me up and making me a stronger individual. For once in my life, i suddenly realized the importance of physical fitness, and how it actually demoralized and made me regret for not keeping fit over the years. It’s a great time for good reality check on myself, my discipline, and my values. It’s so easily to compromise in here, and many times being put down by others even if you have done your best. Consistency is what i deem important now.

My only prayers now is that by God’s grace I’ll have favor with the people in my camp. Perhaps I got alot to work on from now, i need to change for the better. Maybe one of the most important thing i should do is to not take things too seriously, and not to care and think too much i guess? Do keep me in prayers friends!

I need greater faith in God that He will never forsake me in these tough time, learning to lean on Him so much more.. Disciplining myself to do my QT every morning from today.. Let it be a fresh start for me in my walk with God in camp. I need the joy of the Lord! Can’t wait to book out for this week, it’s been a really bad week for me.. Need a breather.

Thoughts that run through my mind now..

The truth is that: not everyone who promised that they will be there for you will always be there for you when you truly needs them. Be it, BFFs, close friends, good friends, whomever! Sometimes, the best way to know who are true to us or not, is.. Who are the ones who actually do show up?

And the truth is that no one can truly understand the pains and sufferings we go through, and no one can truly say that they “can understand” the exact way we’re feeling! We can’t always depend on other people to solve our issues! We need to face and deal with it ourselves! We can’t run away!!

But yet, that doesn’t mean we should stop accounting or share our problems with others.. sometime, all we need is someone who’s willing to listen to our rantings, and maybe empathize with us and encourage us! And I feel that it’s totally alright not to be okay at times! Everyone, including saints go through our “Valley” seasons! No one in life is ever spared from pains or sufferings in life! Are we going through it or are we Growing through it? I’m sure there’s always a lesson to learn in each trial we go through in life!

But after all that Is said and done, I’m totally convinced that even if there isn’t anyone who’s gonna standby me or be there for me, I do know there’s Someone who had promised me that He’ll never forsake me nor leave me in my times of need. TYJ! :)

I believe and trust that He’s in control, and Indeed He’ll cause all things to work together for my Good! Pains, trials and sufferings are here for a little while, but it’ll build and develop our character along the way… Preparing us for the future and destiny installed ahead of us.. No pain, No gain!

Hello..

It’s been quite sometime since I visited and update this cosy space of mine.. Hahaha.. Perhaps it’s time to pen down some of my thoughts over the weeks! It’s been so long since I’m blogging, kinda feeling a little lost in what I should post! Haha..

I do have a lot I wanna share, but Maybe i’ve been keeping way too much stuffs on the inside. But I guess we just don’t need or have to blurt out every thoughts or feelings we have in life! Some things are just not meant to be spoken, and people don’t need to know! Wisdom! :)

Well, it’s been a transition after another transition for me over the weeks! From a student of SOT into a graduate of SOT, and then into the beginning of my 2 years of NS life! Still learning to cope with all the drastic changes and it had been a rough and tough time for me! But I’m determined to enjoy every experiences along the journey and I had learnt so much along ever since! It’s a whole new experience and environment, but everything’s still good! Thank God for putting me in a good platoon and nice bunk mates!

Well, perhaps it’s a blessing in disguise over the last 1 week or so, as I was hospitalized for my unknown swelling of my hands due to over exercising and i was given 7 extra days of MC!- total of 10 days!!! Over the days, I knew who are truly my friends, and I’m thankful for all those who visited and accompanied me thru my stay in the hospital! I’m officially missing the trainings and my buddies in camp! Looking forward to book in with them this Sun! :))

Gonna make the most out out of everything in BMT! it’s indeed gonna be the best memories in my life!